You may think lately “why did she create a blog if she’s never gonna post a damn thing on it?!”
My friends, a lot happened lately.
First of all, I turned 28 last week. I thought it would hurt, that I would be crying, praying God to make me younger. The truth is: I have never been happier. And you know the whole irony in that little random sentence? I took a huge turn recently, and I feel like it was, for the first time, the right thing to do.
When I was a kid, I pictured myself as a writer and a teacher. I just wanted, you know, be passionate about something and to share it with others. But life happens, and I ended up going on business school and hoping for a good position on a real estate company.
Flash forward from that dreamy little girl to last summer. I have been working on the same company (that real estate one I have been talking about previously) since two years and a half, when my boss looked at me, and my fancy diploma and asked to answer the phone and to open mails, because someone more competent than I was had been hired.
Guess that moment was about to define everything that went wrong with me in the past decade. So, I did some research, applied to some courses, and waited. I got married between all that process, but, still, I knew that, for once, I was thinking at myself and not what my parents, my friends, anybody around here could think.
The results came back quickly, to be perfectly honest. I was in, I was accepted! I was coming back to stage one: which is being a student, but I couldn’t be more excited. So, I told my boss.
He reacted like any boss could have reacted, only more violently.
“You show no respect.”
Yes, I do. I show respect to myself, because for the first time in my whole life, I stepped up for something I cared about. For once, I fought, and I won. Because whatever happen before, it’s erased and I can have a clean slate. And for the first time, I think about myself first, because last time I checked, I was able to make my own choices without asking before. I may leave a job, but it’s no vain. It’s no game. It’s no whim.
Yeah, a lot happened recently: I learned how to stand up by my own side.